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Failure and Depression

I was reading this story from one of my friends. And this helped me drive home the point that depression, oftentimes, is not so much a result of what happens in your life but how you choose to think about them.

Here is her story:

“It is unavoidable to have depressive thoughts when one feels that he or she didn’t achieve anything, especially at times when you are not doing something you are used to be good at it. After my college graduation I landed on a good job right away, but sad to say that because of the economy, retrenchment was the trend at that time. I kept on moving from one job to another. That time I felt I’m ineffective, but I looked at the brighter side: I have gained more valuable experiences from the different jobs I had.

When I got married, finding a job seemed more difficult. Some companies prefer those who are single and without commitments. There was a time when I applied for a position in one of the big companies near our place but I was rejected because they only hired fresh college graduates for they can give all their time for the job.

I have a job but I am anxious that I would lose it again because of the economy. I thought I haven’t done anything worthwhile. I am a total failure. To deal with this, I turned to food and became an emotional eater myself. I also developed the worst acne on my face that is due to unhealthy eating habits and entertaining negative thoughts too much. I also experienced that my self esteem dropped down to the extent that I don’t want to socialize anymore – not even with my relatives.